TOO MUCH

So, how do you die over and over without leaving this realm

How many versions of ourselves are we "allowed"

How much growth is "too much growth"

How much self reflection is "too much self awareness"

How many questions are "too many questions"

How do we stunt our growth with growth?

Why are spiritual rebirths so violent?

I understand birth is supposed to be peaceful

But if it's everything then it's also traumatic

Why are we created and have no idea where we came from?

Why do we forget the journey to the portal?

Why do we forget the journey through the portal?

Who were we before birth

Why does the pain mean progress?

Why must pain exist?

Must I bleed to understand loss?

The answer is simply,

Yes.

Life is red and flows

If the flow stops

All of you stops

Pain is communication

We are not above the experience

You are not above pain

They taught us to run from it

Learn to make love to it

Pain is no longer an enemy

It is not something feared

I fear when pain is made to be irrelevant

Don't lie to them

Suffering & pain are not the same things

So I learned how to die without dying

The waves of progress being:

Equal part orgasmic

Equal part terrifying

They didn't teach us this but we are experiencing it anyway, angels.

You're not "too much."

And guess what even if you are?

Billions

There are billions of souls out there

So many are like yours that are told they are "too much"

Learn from your pain, love.

She's trying to help you.

(*spiritual rebirths)