12th HOUSE

The thing about friends was I always had them

Also, had a hard time keeping them growing up

I didn't understand certain dynamics for a long time

It was obvious to everyone but me

Now I can see it but I won't lie

I bloomed the latest in that understanding

I could feel the mocking nature but when called out

They'd lie

Of course they would lie

I just didn't understand

Do friends really hate each other?

Are we supposed to sabotage one another?

Are we supposed to backstab one another?

Are we supposed to hurt one another?

Am I supposed to despise your existence?

Why?

Do I have to hate myself for you?

Do we need that validation?

When I would leave, I would turn the other cheek

I never wanted to hurt

Didn't even have time to understand retaliations

In hindsight,I resent that I did that but that's the thing about self sovereignty

I can choose my own well being

Because I don't fight

I end

& it's no one else's concern

The irony is that in their plotting, their plans never included me actually walking away

They thought I was naive because of my heart

Not because I wouldn't eventually figure out what was going on

Betrayal is simply not something I tolerate

You shouldn't either

I'll always reject behaviors that don't reflect my own

Immediately

Swiftly

Precisely

You do not get to assault my spirit and cry wolf to the universe

The Universe witnessed

So I will walk away

Every

Single

Time

There is no compromise when it comes to love and envy

Even secrets told in confidence are still sacred

You can rest on the fact that you no longer deserve my confidence

but your hatred will not kill the love inside of me

You did not break me, sister

You liberated me

So, thank you for the lessons in this life

I don't wish to see you in the next

(*hidden enemies in the 12th)